Reclaiming the Vision

Wow, the last time I posted on here was when I was in South Africa. That seems like ages ago, yet at the same time it feels like it was just yesterday. I can't believe I've already been home from South Africa for close to 6 months. Weird. I don't think I've actually let that sink in yet. Sometimes I wish I could just be back in SA where everything seemed to be so perfect. Actually, my life in SA was far from perfect, but I had a sense of being and worth in SA. Growing in my relationship with the Lord was easy, well easier. I had classes, a great group of people to challenge me, and a wonderful support system. But when I got back to the States everything changed. Most of my friends are gone and the interns just don't seem to keep in touch with each other like we said we would. To be completely honest, life since I've been back in the States has been a real struggle. I know what I should be doing, but I just feel so un-motivated. And I seem to have lost sight of my vision. In many ways, it seems like I've fallen right back into being the person I was before my year in South Africa. But I'm not, that's the thing. God started a great and wonderful work in me and I put it on the back burner when I got home. But I'm done with that. Yes, life at home is challenging and at times I just want to ignore it and not deal with it. But I can't. I'm here. And I can't hinder God's work in me just because I'm in a place where I feel uncomfortable and out of place. If anything, I should be striving to grow more now than ever before. I know God has great plans for me, but if I just keep sitting here doing nothing, I will never see those plans come to pass. I need to step out in faith even though it scares the crap out of me. I need to reclaim that vision He has given me and run with it. I know it won't be easy, and that scares me...a lot. But what scares me even more is allowing my dreams and the plans that God has for me pass me by. So, today I step foot on the path again...

Lord please help me to stay focused on you and the beautiful vision you have given me.