friendships

the shift key on this computer isn't working so i will type this post without it. sorry of it bothers any of you. lately i've been looking at the friendships i have with people and it seems as though a lot of them are only skin deep. it's rather frustrating, but i think i am the only one to blame. i have never really taken the time to fully invest in the lives of the people around me. and i don't like that. everyone knows a lot about me cuz i kind of force it on them at times. and i think it's time i start loving people and investing in their lives the way i should, the way i'm called to. i set a goal when i left africa and that was to learn something new about each of the people i hang out with each week. and i'm gonna do it. i'm tired of the one-sided relationships i've created. i want to be involved in the lives of my friends. i know that i'm loved but i want them to know that they are loved too.

you are loved and i'm gonna start showing it.

please be patient with me as i am trying to implement a major change in my life. i look forward to deepening friendships and getting to know you better, even those of you that are close friends. and i am sorry for not doing this sooner.